You know what they say about the best laid plans? A few days after my last post, my mother in law went into hospital and subsequently passed away yesterday morning. I haven't had the concentration to write much at all - be it emails, blog posts or let alone on my story. My thoughts have been choked with grief, my concentration span minimal. For the last week, we knew she was dying, it was just a matter of when her body would give up the fight. Every phone call would make my body tense, my heart start to race. As callous as it seems to say it, when I answered the phone at 1:30 on Sunday morning, knowing what the phone call had to be, the main reaction was relief. Relief that the journey that had been so hard on everyone, was finally over.
So now my mind has cleared again (until the funeral on Friday anyway), I need to get back into the habit of writing. I'm not going to stress about word count at the moment and I've given up on the idea of entering anything into the STALI this time around. I think I need to just journal for a while, get my thoughts out and get back into the habit. Forget about the novel and just journal.